When I accepted Islam, I knew that someday I too would wear the hijab (headscarf). But I told myself, that I was still young and it would be better to spend time learning about Islam first. I convinced myself that I should have more knowledge and be able to answer all kinds of questions about Islam before. But in reality, the reason I didn't wear the hijab was because I feared what people would say. I worried what family, friends, and even strangers would say or think about me. So, I didn't wear hijab until I traveled and it was necessary.
Hijab Offers Safety
During my 3 week visit, the fear and anxiety I went through was indescribable. I was constantly reminded of the importance of being covered to hide my identity. There were road checks and a visible presence of army and security officers that I wasn't accustomed to. I was told many stories of incidences and was on constant alert. AlhamdulliAllah , Allah kept me safe and I was able to meet the family.
Should I Keep My "Temporary Hijab" On?
The flight home was long and I had originally intended to remove the hijab by the time I reached Europe. However, I just couldn't. It seemed like an ungrateful thing to do after Allah had brought me safely home. So I extended my "temporary hijab" until I would reach home.
"I would place my priorities in obeying my Creator."